as I follow the time lines of people who twitter from the besieged city of Gaza.
I am trying to listen to the voices from that far-away so-close place called Gaza.
I find it hard to sleep as buzz goes on, carrying news of explosions,
The intensity of the twits sweeps me into it,
and I am feeling as vigilant as if my alertness could
possibly make some affect,
as if me being "watching" can change anything.
As if Gaza was a huge jail, and I could somehow
empower the people who are sending twits live from Gaza by
amplifying their voices as many other people in twitter do,
and deliver a message:
You are not alone.
The Israeli media tries to portray a bright picture of Gaza,
a city that enjoys economic growth and better conditions,
following the opening of Rafah crossing.
But there are many sources suggest otherwise.
Gisha access report reveals that there Gaza is still unable to export its goods and provide for its people due to Israeli restriction. That Unrwa can't implant most of the recovery and reconstruction.
On August 16th, a Palestinian boy from the refugee camp Al-Nusseirat ,
that had a mental disability according to his family, was shot dead by the Israeli occupation forces as he approached the fence from a distance of 400 meters, according to PCHR report.
On October 16 IOF launched strikes on 3 of the main cities of Gaza Strip,
Rafah, Khan Yunis and Gaza itself, resulting with 6 people casualties.
Here are their names:
Names Of The Six Martyrs
, In the Last Attack On Rafah City :
1- , Malak Shaat.
2- Abu Awad Neirab.
3- Imad Hammad.
4- Khaled Shaath.
5- Khaled el-Masri.
6 Unknown young man
A twitterer from Gaza described it as an ongoing reality for the last several years,
as I tried to veirfy data I picked from a facebook status,
saying Gaza was suffering ongoing IOF strikes on the past two weeks before the attack on the southern boarder.
On August 18, an armed attack of enemy forces
killed 8 Israelis and wounded many others.
Israel "vows payback/ retaliation" the media said.
As a blogger commented– the term
"Retaliation" becomes obscure & vague once you can hardly tell what was before and what was after.
This "retaliation" have claimed the lives of 15 Gazan, including the
life of a 14 years old boy,
Mouhamad Abou Samra.
I just saw another report about a burnt body of a child that has arrived to
Al- Shifa hospital
Many women, elders and children have been wounded as well.
All this comes at a time when the connection between Gaza Strip and the attackers haven't been fully clarified. It is unclear whether this attack is affiliated with Al-Qaeda like groups in Sinai.
After the armed attack in the Southern boarder I was hearing some malicious joy coming from individuals, Palestinians and Egyptians mostly.
I confess I felt reluctant. I remember the command,
not to rejoice on an enemy's fall.
Those people who were killed, they were civilians too.
I denounce and I shall always do hurting civilians.
I do believe that civilians should be kept away from carnage at all cost.
Death of armed once doesn't make me happy either.
Malicious joy is ugly, but my first instinct is to excuse it by saying there was very little sympathy for Palestinians' lost lives coming from the Israeli side. I also remind myself that victims are victims, whether they are innocent or flawed. Terror comes from both sides, but one side is the occupier, and stronger, and the other side is the occupied, and weaker in terms of ammunition and resources.
I feel so helpless, incapable to stop this storm of death, violence, pain and fear.
Despite the fact that I am agnostic there is one more thing I'd like to do, besides going to protest
against the Israeli aggression on Gaza:
I would like to pray in my own way, lie in my bed, chant mantra of peace for Gaza.